Morcidus' Diary

I studied for years and sometimes traveled with Sades, recruiting new members for his cause. I was not part of the cult (yet) but I grew pretty intrigued by the cause. To dominate the battling nations so the world could finally live in peace as one part ruled by Hextor the great. One night Sades woke me up and told me to get up and follow him. We entered the altar room and he said: “ You are a great companion Morcidus Levdelim so I wanted to ask you something. You are traveling with me for many years now and have helped me with my cause, so I wanted to ask if you want to learn more”. “Of course” I replied quickly. “Good good” he answered with a smirking face. “Please join me in my cause, be a part of my cult and become one of us my friend. And if you do, Hextor will give you all the guidance you need for the knowledge you seek. Give up your soul to the great one and you will become the most powerful and wise wizard that will ever roam the lands”. I did not expect this but it was my only goal, my only drive in life, knowledge is power and power is greatness.”Maybe at Sades side I will fulfill my destiny” I thought to myself. “Yes, I will join you”. Sades eyes glowed with fire and smirked. “Kneel before the statue of the great one” he yelled. After that he spoke in a weird language I didn’t understand, he was casting a spell. Red and black fog surrounded my body. My soul exited my body and entered the statue, the statue rose to flame and I fell into a trance. There I was on the edge of a castle in a red void. Right in front of me stood a big red man heavily armored with 6 arms. He spoke to me “Morcidus Levdelim is no more, I grant you guidance and power. From now on you shall be known as Morcidus Hex. Now return back and spread my cause”. After that I shot back in my body, Sades standing in front of me. “Welcome my apprentice”

In the upcoming years I traveled alone and recruited some people. Its hex, a changeling I found abandoned in the woods. And Talon, a dragonborn warrior found almost dead in a puddle of mudd. Sades asked me to go on a mission, he wanted me to go back to the elven capital to infiltrate the royal house that leads the kingdom. One of Sades’ assassins had captured the old wizard of the castle and he gave me the task to win information. So I tried for days but he was silent. Sades was disappointed and told me that I needed to be more aggressive and brutal with him and that I needed to stop acting so cowardly. I did without any questions, within a few hours he gave in and told me everything I needed to know. So I started my journey back to my old home and infiltrated the castle as their new wizard of the castle. I got to know the family better. They had one son named Darion. He was an intelligent kid. His father and mother did not pay much attention to him. I grew fond of the kid because I saw myself in him. I trained him. But I got a job to do. Sades had tasked me to eliminate the royal house. But I did not want to kill the kid. I convinced Sades to let him live so we could use him for our own. I only did that because I started to care for the boy. I did not want to see him die. But now Sades gave him the task to kill his parents. After months of manipulating and plotting the plan got to action. On a peaceful night he got into the room of his parents and he set it ablaze. We watched them die in the fire, Darion shed a tear but for a short moment. After that he watched glad that they died. We fled very fast. When I brought him to our base Sades was not there so I took the initiation with him. “Darion il eplith, welcome to our cause. But from now on you will live under a new name, a more powerful name from now on you will be known as Darion hex apprentice of Morcidus hex and together we will spread the cause of Hextor the great”. We made a blood pact so he could use some of my power. But If I died he died and in reverse. I trained him as much as I could after that we started to travel. At some point we met a cloaked figure, he said his name was Gibraltar Agolith and he needed our help. From then on we followed him and started our journey.

“Darion was a son to me, brave, smart and helpful. I shall miss you and I will take care of little Merijn the best I could and your legacy will forever live on….. My son”
~Morcidus Hex

The first mission I took Darion to we ware tasked to Infiltrate a small church comunity and convert them to the cause of Hextor the great. Wat I was told by sades was that this was a comunity that was cruel to the people that they thought were not worthy, poor and "sinfull". Sades wanted them on our side to spread our cause to a greater audience. We came there disguised as nobel people seeking guidence in our life. I felt pathetic acting like I needed guidence from these idiots. Darion did his part wel as a nobel man. Curing the wounded and sick and speaking like a true believer when I was busy manipulating the Bishop. But that was to no succes. He tasked us to rid this town of the "sinfull". Thats what he called the peasants. I needed to do it. When I took the ceremony with Darion Sades was not happy. He punished me heavily. Torturing me mentaly and physically. So now I know better. We slaughterd them. Burning them down, taking there heads, killing the children. When we returned to the church I spoke to the Bishop and all the 33 nobels that where in the church listened. The bishop was delighted of the news as the dark church lit up with the fire of the town in the back ground. Here I stood, now with one goal converting them. I preformed a speech. "My fellow nobels and dear bishop, we helped you conquer the sinful. But we are not in another gods need, we came here with a goal. What we did is conquer and that is our goal to spread peace. As you say the sinfull have cursed the land and thats what we also want to eradicate. So im asking politly, join us, join Hextor and together we shall find peace." It was silent for a moment. And everyone laughed so hard it could be heard miles away. At that moment I lost it, my eyes turned glowing red it was like something had taking a hold of me. I looked at Darion and he knew how late is was. I walked to the Bishop and knocked him on his knees. I focused up on him and his eyes popped out. After that I ordered Darion to kill the rest and toghether we destroyed every single on of those filthy pride lusting vermin. When we walked out of the church my eyes rolled back and the whole church set ablaze. Darion and I left, the only thing that remained was the burning town in the horizon.

Aftermath

Now I have to explain again that we have failed so I was nervous, I just hope that Sades wil leave Darion alone. When we returned back to base Sades was waiting for us but he was not angry. Actualy he was happy about the outcome. He already knew what kind of people they were so it was al a test. A test for us to show how we would handle a no for an answer. He compimented Darion for his deception skills and left te room to study.

Darion did not only travel with me. When I was busy learning and researching Sades tasked Darion to go on a mission with Moria to kidnap a baby dragonborn. To this day im not hunderd precent sure what happend but I did know that it was not Darions fault that the baby died. I suspected that Moria just killed the baby and framed Darion so Sades would punish him. And that plan worked. When I got to the altar room Darion was on his knees Sades was forcing all the air out of his lungs. I yelled "STOP THIS AT ONCE". Sades looked at me and said calmly "How dare you talk to me like that. He ruined the mission so he must pay". "It was his first mistake, please stop he learned enough" I replied hesitant. Sades stopped and said in a dark tone "You interupted me so you wil be the one to finish the punishment Morcidus". My face turned pale from shock what he just said. Sades pointed to the ground were he just stood. I stood before Darion, his eyes looked red and his lips were pale. "Do it" Sades said in pushin way. I looked Darion in the eye and telepathicly said "sorry but I must do it" as I casted a torture spell on him he screamed out of agony. I just stood there holding in my tears. But my eyes glimpsed at the door and there was Moria smirking in a evil way as she vanished back in the dark corridor. Later that night after taking Darion to his quarters I apologized he quickly murmerd "you did what you needed to do". I went left the room and got to the library and there is spotted Moria. I took her behind the large bookshelf and pushed her against the wall and casted burning hands. "I know this was you" I snarled. She took on a smirking face and said " I only know that stupid little aprentice of yours fucked up the mission by letting the baby die". "DONT LIE TO ME, DARION HAS NEVER FAILED MISSION AND WOULD NEVER LEAVE THAT THING OUT OF HIS SIGHT." I said with rage. "And also the kid was found in a place miles away from camp by Darion so dont play stupid, I know you want my possition but you must not forget who youre superior is snake tong. The next time you shall do this Sades wrath will feel like joke compared to the things I shall do to you". I said calmly but I felt the same feeling in my body and eyes as the day of the masacre of the sinfull and noble. She looked scared but shrugged it of quickly, she turned around and got back to here studies.

Darion and I got back to travelling. We had no missions we were just exploring the land. I am really proud of the kid he learned so much since the day I took him in. He is kind but can be cruel we needed to be, his believe in Hextor also grew over the years. When we just set camp at the edge of the forest near a clif we sat down next to the campfire. And I told him stories about my youth and how I became Sades acomplice. I noticed that he was very intrigued. At the end of my story he said "We are much alike you know." A lilltle smile turned on my face as I stood up and walked to the edge of the clif. I stared at the stars and was wondering if I should tell him how I feel about him "He felt as a son to me so why wouldnt I tel" I thought to myself, but no it brings to much weaknes to knowing Moria wants my position very desprately.

When we returned back I just noticed Moria was sneaking around a lot. I just needed to space myself from Darion a lot more and needed to be more strict with him. I tore me appart from the inside. The only one who truely knew how I felt about him was Sades, so I asked him to not let Darion go on misions with me or Moria but to let him partner up with Its. Sades knew Moria was after my possition so he granted me this favor. I did most missions on my to great succes, I conquered villages, manipulated smal goverments and recruited new alies. But al of it changed when Sades tasked for a mission with Darion to search for Gibraltar Agolith and help him on his quest. Thats the only thing he told us. But that was the biggest mistake I ever made.

I gasped for air, holding one hand to the eye that just got burned out of my skul. I looked to Darion crying. Darion got on his knees and started to pray...... Then his eyes glowed red as a Golden orb exited his body and flew in to mine. There I stood Alive but wounded and there he layd my son dead by the mistakes I made. I never even could of said how I felt.....

We have a new name now, the Medui-Alf. We are dead to the public. And now we have more problems and enemies. I wrote this to open up a bit more about our members.

"Sigwald VI" Gibraltar Agolith

Ive been through hell and back with Gibraltar. First in Phandalin, where he assisted Lorniac icetoe to subdue me, but that event got way worse. I forgave him but I shal never forget it. Although we agrue a lot I trust this man with my life and I would never let him down... for now.

Saulus Goodmanus

When he joined our group first he was quiet and I did not really like him. Also he did not preform wel in the quest to kill cryovein. But sinds we entered Agolith he opened up a bit and really felt his pain so now I respect him a lot more. When that fight in the Arena happened I saw his true potential.... verry interesting.

Lyon Grass

I still don't trust this thing. A mutant changeling he said, more like a weird amalgamation of different souls. He doesn't even know who he is. I must say he is brave. Fighting isn't his strongest perk he is good with his words. Im intrueged what will happen to him.

Alcides

We met Alcides one day before Saulus passed away. Now he joined us on our journey. I dispice this foolish morron. Brawn over brain with his rough talk and his big presence. I dont like him one bit. He dare talk to me like he did in the tent. A shame he replaced Saulus his place. I only saved him because without him we have a smaller chance of killing the king. But if he even speaks to me with the wrong tone again he shall regret it....

He is dead... Saulus has fallen in battle. But is he truly gone? I can barely feel anything, just a dull numbness that clouds my mind, as if something is watching from just beyond my sight. The nights grow unnaturally long, as if time itself is stretching and the days are no better. I can't remember the last time I truly rested; something keeps me awake, even when sleep seems within reach. And when I do manage to drift off, I am never alone. They’re all there: Darion’s lifeless body, Merijn's last smile, the charred remains of Gaol and now Saulus too. They haunt me, whispering accusations. They follow me everywhere, even in the daylight, even when I close my eyes. It’s like they're waiting for something, something I can’t understand.

Saulus sacrificed himself to save us, to kill Burkhart, but did we really win? I feel like I’m drowning, caught in currents of guilt and something darker. Has my past finally caught up. Is this how I must atone for my sins? Every shadow feels heavy with intent, and I can’t shake the feeling that Hextor has turned his back on me. Or worse, that he’s watching, waiting for me to fail.

I’ve decided I won’t carry his symbols anymore. The faith I thought was my shield now feels like a trap, like something sinister creeping at the edges of my thoughts. The power I gained, does it stand against the loss I've endured?

Life is cruel, but when you overcome the cruelty hope shines through.
~Morcidus the Grey

I can't wrap my mind around what happend this day. Gaol returned and his sister dead en we shall be framed for it. It can't be I saw him die I saw his body turn into ashes... what is dead needs to stay dead. When he came to me again in that weird place I chose to stab him put him out of his misery, he... he is dead. What this was can't be Goal.....

He has returned. Saulus is alive, reborn as Phanix. We were about to die the phoenix was about to kill us but then he apeared and healed us. I can't believe it but its true my friend is back.

After the events in Lithion we traveled through the Danneafold to Eldervile. When we entered Eldervile weird things started to happen, Eathquakes struck the city and everyone was in terror. I was wondering why it is always when we visit places all hell brakes lose, is it our fault or is it the fault of the people who are in search of us. No matter what happens we always try to fix the damage that comes with us. As did we do know. The Grand Métre Robine Pellefort told us the problems originated from the centre of the library. After we entered the library rifts started to appear and the earthquakes started to get worse. We entered a strange room with a big statue of Lophicus The Gold-Faced . We met the vessel of Pengolodh who recognised Lyon. After that some pieces started to fall together. And my predictions came true, after we fought of the shadow monsters Lyon entered the strange portal and came back as Lophicus. My respect grew for the boy at that moment. He is a great a leader with pure intentions. As I grew as a person over the past months and started to agree with most of the ideas of Lyon/Lophicus. If there must be a new leader for our Elysian Paradise it must be him.

Sigwald the VI Gibraltar Agolith the one true crownprince of Agolith fixated on killing his father no matter the price. His moral code has shifted since I first met him. He grows more unhinged since we entered Agolith. He is in a downwords spiral and he is DESTROYING OUR GOAL OF MAKING AN ELYSIAN PARADISE....... I know I made some grave mistakes in the past but I try to better myself. Try to become a prominent part of the Elysian Promise even if I am not completly sure I can do what it takes. I was a loyal follower of him and supported him in his goal but I dont know for how long I can take his wreckless behavior...

After leaving the Daenefold we traveled back to Avarel. Lot of things had changed since we left there. Our journey leads us to the tournament in Aerowyn so we decided to visit our old friend, The Red Rose. He granted us money to get new equipment. We also met the new participants of the elections. Interesting people if you'd ask me. We eventually had a dinner with the participants and the Red Rose in his mansion. The food was undiscribably good. There were lots of discussions at the table... foolish politicians, they all know who really is in charge of Avarel. The dwarf called redhammer left and at that moment the red rose collapsed on the ground poisend. We all started to acuse each other then the guards took us away. The Red Rose stumbled outside and told the guards we were guilty. I was shocked, but deep inside I just felt that it was al part of a plan he had... he damn wel knew we were not the ones he needed us for something else. My feeling was right for the first time in a verry long time. His daughter visited us and we escaped the prison. Weird cultist were there as wel storming and blowing the prison up. It is starting to bother me why it is when we enter a place it almost always suffers the same fate as always... burning. When we left Gibraltar sneaked back to the Red Rose manor to get our stuff back. He came back with a dark mask I don't know how he got it but I don't trust it. We also broke out a interesting person the cultist were looking for. After researching the assasination attempt on Don Leone we arived at the Asylum. We got to the old cell of the prisoner we broke out. In there were strange carvings on the wall and a pouch. When I looked in it I saw a eye staring right back at me. Saulus told me at that moment I started to float in the air and my body started to twitch like I was possed. That was far more pleasent to look at as the things I saw. The end of the world we know.... everyone dead.... the eclipse.... the eclipse was staring right at me. And then there was nothing, Absolutly nothing. I was floating in a void. A voice asked me what is the thing I desire the most. Then I saw it, an Elysian Paradise.... but how hard I tried I could not get there. Then I woke up... tears of blood runing down my face. It stills haunts me, the hoplessness. We eventualy went back to the desk of the asylum and saw the daughter of the red rose talking to a man with a bone mask. And then the cultist apeared again. Saulus and I went to the basement and Gibraltar en Lophicus stayed at the desk. In the basement we saw someone.... someone missing an eye. The same eye that was in the bag. He set the basement on fire and Saulus and I ran when went to the front gate. The Eclipse started to appear. Quickly we ran to the Pressedential tower and went up there. As usual hell broke lose. The Desciple with one eye wanted is eye back so we fought and I bested him. When we got to the suite the Red Rose was sitting there, with bone man and his son. His son tried to poison him so bone man killed him. But Don arranged his own poisoning.... to become a vampire. After a day we left Averal again and got the information for the tournament and a personal letter from the Red Rose. He closed his letter with "A surprise doesn't come from the front, neither does a backstab". Im allert as I usualy am but now more. Aerowyn is a dangerous place for us and a place where Gibraltar's patience and morality will be tested... I fear for the worst.

We travled to Kingsreach for our last stop before we enter Aerowyn. On our way we met a elderly dwarf named Karstov. A wise man if I say so myself with interesting stories. We needed to spent on night on the road so Karstov stayed with us. When we were sitting around the campfire I told them a story Sades once told me about the Unknown. He called it The Ballad of Ashen Flames. I got weird feeling after telling it like something bad will be happening. The next day we left but after a while we saw someone sitting on his knees on the road. It was Clarg... the bugbear I killed 3 times now. A verry bad memory from a different time and a different me. He begged us to kill him once more, he said some evil witch brought him back everytime. I walked away I was done facing myself with my past mistakes. But something in me said this would be the last time... to grant his wish. So I turned around and pressed my sword through his neck and burned him so his body would be gone nothing left but ashes. I still had a weird feeling but shrugged it away. When we entered Kingsreach things we went with Karstov to the home of his old girlfriend. A woman opend the door and told him that she died and she is his daughter. We left them alone. We went to tavern to rest and go to sleep. When we were sitting there someone we knew walked in. The son of bitch basterd Conrad Waters. He at first he didn't see us. But eventually he walked towards us and started to taunt us. The next day We heard Karstov got sick so we brought him to the church and they wanted to heal him but we needed to collect the right ingredients and memorabillia for it. In the town square we saw the same cultist we saw in Avarel and even met another desciple... this time with both eyes and not as crazed. We warned Conrad but he told us he was already aware and we should not put our nose in their busseniss. I hate that man, such arrogance. Eventually we entered the church and met up with some of our Arrows of Twilight friends who are disguised as Agolithian guards. The ceremony to heal Karstov had begon but out of nowhere the ground started to shake. Saulus and I went outside and saw a big group of cultist sitting there and praying. I striked thunder into the air warning them and alerting Conrad. The basterd came up to us. For the first time since we arived he wasn't a total fool. Maybe he saw that we also had the safety of the people as priority. But he spotted the Arrows of Twillight and saw through there disguises. The tried to flee buf eventually it didn't work. We chased the cultist away and the next day we travelled to Aerowyn.

Making our wat into Aerowyn was the most nervous I've been in a long time. Guards everywhere... and I even felt that the statues were looking at us. We went to a Inn where we would stay the night. After closing we stayed downstairs for a bit just chatting with eachother. Then the barkeep walked in and covered the statue of Aerowyn. He let some suspicious persons in and escorted them to the basement. When the second group came we walked with them. They knew some information for us and where they had taken the Arrows of Twillight. We helped them. They didn't trust us verry much so they sent one of theres with us. Nikolas, a necromancer. At first I was sceptical about him, still am to be honest. But I saw something in him. After we made our way through the shard we fought another desciple. He showed us things... I cant explain. After that I named Nikolas as my first desciple, a disciple of the Holy. Not that I am the Holy.... but I serve Caellus and the Elysian Promise so I will do everything in my power to prove myself, to redeem myself, to show the world I can be Holy.