One, two, three, four. At this point I’ve lost
count of the time that has passed. I’m not even sure how much of it has passed
since I left them behind. I knew in the end that this was for the best. This
was what I had wanted in the end wasn’t it? To be able to control the thing
that The Warden wanted out of me. Yet here I am, sitting in a medical room
being examined. Another day, another failure. The longer this has been going on
the more I’m getting used to it. This made my previous guild seem like nothing.
I was alone in the room for the time being
after being told that I couldn’t continue any more for a while. No one was
giving me an answer why, but I had a sinking feeling that it had to do with the
continuous failures. Failures in training, failures in missions. I was holding
the team back and I hated that. But this time was different since I’ve started
not feeling quite like myself. The red flags continued as I tried to read the
lips of the doctor as they spoke to him.
He stood towering over the poor sap as the two
of them addressed what was the elephant in the room. I was in the dark for
pretty much everything these days and yet I was being closely monitored. The
demonic attributes stemming from the demon foot taking over more of my leg
since the last examination. When my foot was first cut off, it was just growing
from my midcalf. Now the cursed thing was going all the way to my knee.
After speaking with the Doctor, he came into
the room and stood in silence watching me as I fixed my clothes. There were a
few bandages here and there, but the sense of dread was what was eating at me
more. I looked up at him hoping to find some answers, but he continued to stare
in silence. That sinking feeling of dread continued with the sense of
disappointment emanating from him. He turned his back to me and started to
walk.
“Come,” came his voice prompting me to follow
him.
We walked through the halls of what I have now
come to call home. All kinds of people were living within these walls following
every order like the soldiers we were. Many with a unique skillset and talent
to get the jobs done. We were all the assassins of Hades, chosen by him
respectively to carry out different types of acts and responsibilities.
As soon as I saw the rest of my team, I turned
away out of embarrassment. Despite seeing some of their concerned faces, it
still didn’t change the way I felt as I walked into Hades’ main room.
The room was lit by the many candles along the
walls with a collection of mirrors lining one of the walls. Books decorated the
shelves in a variety of colors and sizes, each in a different language. Some
were tomes, others were texts and stories. Papers lined the table of various
maps I couldn’t read. He sat in his large chair as I continued to wait for the
lecture to be directed my way. I stood there before him much like how I did as
a child with The Warden.
Not a moment too soon, his calming voice spoke,
“Why did you agree to join?”
My face furrowed caught off guard by his
question. I didn’t know how to answer at first, but after a moment of thought I
replied, “Because…I wanted to be able to control the thing that was inside me.
This magic that I have. I felt like this was the best choice for me.”
“I want you to walk over to the mirror and tell
me what you see,” I followed his arm as he pointed towards the large mirror
standing at the other side of the room.
I walked up to it, the golden frame holding
onto the mirror as I stared into my reflection. I examined everything about it.
Every corner of the frame, the detailing of my face and clothes, the books
behind me. All I could see was me.
“I see me,” I replied to him.
“Look again,” he said slowly.
I didn’t understand what he wanted out of this
as I continued to stare at my own reflection. The longer I stood there, the
sillier it was starting to feel. I was about to address it to him before I
realized what was going on. The eldritch branding on my shoulder was creeping
out of the collar of my shirt. I watched it slither around on my skin like a
snake as it was creeping up my neck and onto my face. More of it was appearing
around the other side as my skin was slowly starting to darken. My eyes,
turning from their usual golden color to a bright flaming blue as black
surrounded them. My hair turned blue as the dark antlers grew and towered. I
was starting to feel panic come over me as I watched my other foot turn into
the same demonic canine foot as what I already had. My fingernails elongate as
my hands turn black.
“Tell me, what do you see?” he asked again
slowly.
Blue flames began to form around me in my
reflection as the panic and fear continued inside of me. A flash of a memory I
had forgotten came to mind. The same creature ransacking and murdering the
entire guild that had raised me. Blood covering the walls and ground with
bodies piled everywhere within the chapel. The same emotions of rage and anger
that had killed The Maiden. The memories of the chaos that this thing was
capable of.
“Is this some sort of parlor trick?” My voice
quivered as my eyes couldn’t look away from the site before me.
“Answer me,” he demanded with a loud voice.
The longer I stared, the more out of control
the voices were starting to get.
Demon
Monster
Devil Child
I’m scared.
Don’t do this.
Help Me
What are you doing?
NO
Screams and yells of the voices finally caused
me to break away from the gaze of the beast as I keeled over in pain. Clutching
onto my head I closed my eyes to help control them. It had been a while since
the voices had gotten this bad. It was almost hard for me to silence them. I
screamed out from the pain that they were causing me.
I fell to my knees on the ground trying to
listen to what was in the room, but there wasn’t anything that I could pinpoint
to silence the voices. When I thought all was lost, I felt pressure on my back.
Upon contact, the voices were silenced entirely. Hades had his hand firmly on
my back as he used the other one to help me up from the ground.
I looked at him in the eyes and then back at
the mirror. The flames were gone but the monster had remained. It looked like
me, normal me but the antlers of my tiefling heritage remained. A single tear
of blood fell from my eyes as the antlers began to disintegrate before me. With
a gentle movement, Hades wiped the tear from off my face.
“I saw it. The thing from the reflection from
that day.”
“Good, you see what I see in you. Now do you
know why I chose you?”
“Not really, and I question that every day at
this point. And don’t give me some special chosen one bullshit. That’s the kind
of stuff you read about and I’m not here for that kind of sugar. There’s no way
you chose me because of this…thing.”
“You’re right.”
I was a bit perplexed by his response but was
waiting to hear what he had to say.
“Every single one of those who set foot within
these halls has something I will nurture and grow. Each will become stronger
and more powerful with my guidance and teachings. Some want to for pure power,
others for thrills, others seek revenge. All will follow my directions for a
common goal. My goal.”
As the words revenge came from his mouth, I
could feel a shiver crawl up my spine.
He walked around the room returning to his
chair, “You are but one of many.”
I didn’t understand what he meant until I saw
them. Ghostly apparitions of children, there were several different of them of
varying ages. Each one of them shares demonic traits like me, some more severe
than others. As they cried or talked, no sound could be heard. As if they were
being silenced by the same thing that silenced me during one of the times I had
been captured.
“I don’t understand,” I proclaimed.
“You were but one of the many children that man
tried to create. Although unlike the others before you, you were the only
successful one. Do you know why?”
I shook my head still not following what he was
trying to say to me.
“Because you were the only one to listen. You
listened not only to me, but others as well,”
Whispers came back into my head but were
manageable this time as he continued. As I had done so many times before, I
focused solely on his voice and let the others be quiet as I listened to him.
“You predecessors were too scared to listen to
the whispers of the grave. They feared The Warden that raised them and you to
the point where they refused to listen to anyone else. That eventually lead to
their own demise.”
Ghostly flames appeared around each one of the
children as their small bodies distorted into horrific eldritch entities that
crumpled and turned to ashes.
“Because they listened to just The Warden
alone, they were unable to retain and control the powers that were growing
rapidly within them. Their small frames were unable to contain the chaotic
energy that was the malice within them. I tried to warn them, but their fear
became their demise.”
A small ghostly image from the flame rose. It
was me as a child. I watched as the child started to grow older as he
continued.
“You on the other hand, were the first one out
of his creations to respond to my voice. In doing so, you listened more to the
one you call The Maiden. You allowed your emotions to grow, and you even
learned to love.”
An image of Flocksura appeared with a slightly
younger version of myself.
“This allowed me to help you control the magic
within you, contain it properly within you. You didn’t let the fear control you
like it did with the others.”
“That still doesn’t really explain it. Why me?
Why not Shay or someone else for that matter? Why am I so special to you?”
“You’re not.”
Again, I was caught off guard by his response
as he continued to speak.
“I chose you because I saw the potential in
you. I saw the power that was within you. I had followed the children of malice
for some time, but you were the only one to respond to my call. Why? Why did
you turn away from The Warden.”
“I guess…” I hesitated for a moment, “because I
didn’t like being bound to him. I wanted to be free and do my own things. I
didn’t want to be treated like an obedient dog that he could just release at
any given time. I wanted to retain my sense of freedom…not just for myself
either. I didn’t want to be. I wanted to be happy because I wanted to.” I
turned and gazed back at the mirror behind me, “I wanted the others to be happy
too. Flocksura, the Maiden. I wanted them to be happy no matter what I did or
became. So, I guess, I listened because I didn’t want him to take any of that
away from me.”
“And yet, look at what happened to them.”
In the mirror reflection I could see Flocksura.
I rushed over to the mirror to see him lying on the ground of a battlefield. I
could hear his voice calling out for help. I wanted to help him but knew that
there was nothing beyond the reflection of the scene Hades was showing me. He
lay bloodied on the ground as technomancers of the new world fought with the
magic users of the old world. Through a blast of magic, the scene changed to
the chapel where I had trained with The Maiden. Her limp body hanging on the
statue. Her chest bloodied from where the statue had poked through her.
“Why are you showing me this?” I said with sadness.
“To remind you of your emotions. None of this
would have happened if it weren’t for him. He was the one to send your partner
to war. He was the one who told her to speak with you in that state. They lost
their lives so that he could break you from your emotions. He was trying to
retain control over you, but he was too late, and you were already mine.”
He came up behind me and grabbed me by the
throat. Lifting my chin as he held onto my wrist with the other hand. I closed
my eyes and listened to his calming voice, refusing to let his sudden movement
falter my thoughts this time. I was not scared and remained calm.
“Because you listened to me, we joined in a
pact and broke the chains of his control on you. I get a recruit with powerful
magic I will grow. In exchange, you still get to retain your every thought,
emotion, and aspects of your life not like what he would have given you. He was
going to take everything away from you. Everything that makes you who you are
so that he could use you like a mindless monster. You don’t want that do you? All
I ask is for you to follow orders respectively and in a timely manner. Follow
my orders and you can become as powerful as you want to be.”
I opened my eyes once more after he released my
throat. In the mirror I saw the burned body of The Warden. He was in a medical
bed speaking to a nurse. I gazed in horror realizing that the man was still
alive. The tome that created me sitting at a table next to him.
“How is this even possible. I thought that book
burned to a crisp with me that day.”
He looked away at the nurse and towards the
mirror. A grin came across his face as he made eye contact with me almost as if
he could see me.
“Stop this! This can’t be real,” I screamed
angrily.
“This is no trick, he will do it again.”
Anger was swelling up inside of me at the
thought of him taking another innocent life and putting them through the same
rigorous training and continuous trauma that he had put me through. The pain,
the suffering, the fear. I didn’t want anyone to be turned into a tool of his
creations to bring about his fake ideology of a perfect world. We were never
his children; we were his weapons and he needed to be stopped.
The antlers began to grow from my head once
more as I barred my teeth foaming at the mouth in anger at the realization that
he was alive. Eldritch energy began to flow from my hands as once again the
voices grew louder.
Kill him.
End his life.
Murder
Stop Him
He deserves it.
“What do you want?” Hades whispers into my ear
quietly.
“I want to end him.”
“Why?”
“Because he needs to die for this cycle to
stop. Not just for what he did to The Maiden or Flocksura, but for the others
before me. I will end him. I will destroy everything if I must to kill him.”
“Is that your true goal?”
“He will perish!”
“Good, I will help you with your goals if you
help me with mine. Follow my orders, learn my lessons and I will help you so
long as you obey me. Not just for those souls that are already lost, but for
the souls still wandering with the living.”
Still locked onto The Warden, he slowly turns
his head. I follow the gaze to the other mirrors on the wall. In each one of
them were familiar faces. Mavari braiding her long hair, Celtra tinkering,
Lorel examining her face, Tear reading, Blautz eating. It was all of them
within the party house as the anger within them turned into concern. I turned
back to see the Warden standing right up out of the bed and close to the
mirror. I was taken aback for a moment as I stepped back into Hades. He placed
his hand on my shoulder as blue flames surrounded the image of The Warden in
it.
“Do as I say, and you will stop him from
creating his perfect world. Fail and you will turn to ash.”
“Yes, my lord. I vow to continue to serve as a
loyal servant in exchange for helping to end my creator’s life. No matter the
cost, he must die by my hands.”
“Excellent,” he paused standing upright, “Because
of your little affair with a celestial,” he waves his hand to clear the flame
to show the man I had encountered on the Brine Isles, “You are advised to
reflect on this for now. Feel that anger within you, feel hatred, love, and
nurture these emotions. These will be key in controlling the malice that you
are. When the time is right, I will call you.”
I walked out of the room, focused with the
voices chittering in a low volume in my head. That sinking feeling of doubt
gone. Walking past the group again I didn’t make eye contact with them, but I
could tell they knew something was going on.
Returning to the same small room as before, I
grabbed ahold of the handheld mirror. Using the same magic as before I was able
to see a glimpse of the others in the party house. Every once and while I use
this to see them and make sure they are ok. Following them and their journey as
they continued without me. I missed being around them after growing to care a
lot about them. I was doing what I wanted to do to become more powerful and
control the beast within me. That way no one else would have control over it.
But now, I wanted to control it and take my revenge. The Warden will die by my
hands. This was my goal.