Maybe it's just being in this grim place but I had an odd dream last night.
It was disjointed but I remember having flashes of my upbrining in the Church of Lathander and joining the Order of the Aster. I remember seeing bits and pieces of my upbringing in the Spires of the Morning and my training under Lady Aurora Pilum.
I always felt like she was trying to control me and manipulate me into doing what she wanted and in the dream I saw her literally pulling my strings, control my path and my destiny like some puppet under her sway. What was particularly strange though was that I saw strings attached to her as well, someone above her and directing her actions - I had assumed it would be Lathander but it wasn't, it was some dark, shadowy figure with a withered hand.
Weird, but probably just a by product of this evil place that we find ourselves in.