John Beaumann, you wake up feeling a presence behind you. The room is so dark, you are not sure if your eyes are open or not. Shivers run down your back as dread fills your mind. You hold your breath as if to hide from whatever may be there and strain your ears to pick out the tiniest of sounds.
"John."
Just a whisper, but may as well be a scream as it echoes in your mind in the otherwise entirely silent room.
"John"
The sound is definitely coming from behind you. You curse in your mind, knowing that you would have to move to know more. And if you move, whoever is calling you name would know you can hear them.
"John!"
This is definitely not any of your new companions. Damn it. Who the fuck is this? And, how did they get into my room?
Your mind goes over the layout of the room. You know there is a door in front of you. But your gear is on a seat behind you.
Do i recognize the voice at all? any discernible features?
To be specific is the voice female?
It's hard to tell as it is a whisper, but the it seems a bit higher pitched than you would imagine yours would be John Beaumann. Something about it makes the hair on the back of your neck stand up.
John Beaumann is gonna think to himself "Well, it's probably my imagination again" and turn around.
On the off chance that it is a threat, however, he's gonna scope out where his gear is just in case it's been moved and start making a plan.
As you slowly turn your body, you can feel a chill on the damp side of your body where sweat accumulated. It is pitch black. Or perhaps it is the sensation of eyes watching you. You know that there is a night lamp if you would just pull your arm from under the covers and reach out.
John Beaumann will turn on the lamp. Very quickly might i add.
As you reach out the coolness of the air makes the hair stand up. You fumble for the switch when you feel a hand grasp your arm. The touch feels cool.
FUCK
You continue to fumble, flip the switch and jump back at the horror in front of you.
FUCK ²
The dim light illuminates the face of a woman and as it does she leans into the light revealing that half her face is blown off by a gun blast.
FUCK ³
You stumble back against the door and almost yell out as you see the room filled with children, all riddled with bullet holes.
And they all start whispering
“John. Why John? Why John?”
As you take a look back at the woman, it is indeed you wife. The hole in her head made it hard to recognize her features. As she whispers blood oozes from her wound. She leans forward, blood drips on your sheets.
John Beaumann scrambles backwards, because obviously, and tries to calm himself down. He's not sure how or with what. He's going to say, kinda frantically and almost like he doesn't believe himself, "I KNOW I didn't kill any of you. I don't have MEMORIES of that. I have memories of the exact opposite thing. I tried to SAVE you. This isn't real. This didn't happen. Not by my hand."
As you say that you look down at your hands and the are soaked in blood.
John Beaumann's gonna try to wipe it off, and says, "This isn't real. It's just more tricks." He will also ask the ghosts some questions,
"YOU didn't die, Cynthia Schawrz. You shot ME in the head. That's why all my memories are gone. Because a damned BULLET went through my BRAIN. Why are you trying to become what you did to me?"
"I know I didn't do this. The only memories I have after that moment affirm that. You can't gaslight me with your ectoplasm. Why are you here?" and then he's gonna gesture broadly towards the whole group and say "Why are ALL of you here?"
Blood drips from John Beaumann's hands as he tries to wipe it off, but only more appears.
Cynthia Schawrz responds,
"You lie John Beaumann. You lie."
echoed by the children, growing louder and louder.
As John Beaumann talks the taste of copper fills his mouth and blood starts to pour generously out of the opening. He yells
"Why are ALL of you here?"
and shuts his eyes to avert them from the scene in front of him...
...and when he opens them back up, he back in bed, sheets soaked in sweat. It is morning and he is tired, but sleep seems like the least favorable option. Even being in the room give him a bad feeling. As he looks down at his hand, where Cynthia Schawrz grabbed him, four parallel scratch marks remain.
John Beaumann's going to do two things. He's going to search the room for any other traces of last night because he very well could have scratched himself during a particularly horrifying nightmare, and he's going to go to the froggy brain doctor to see if this is a normal thing or just him.
As you search the room, you find no visible signs of the events that transpired other than a very messy bed. However you do feel that the area where Cynthia Schawrz stood seems colder than the rest of the room. However this could very well be psychosomatic.
As you examine your hand and body, you notice some blood underneath the fingernails of your other hand.
Somewhat foggy from the poor night’s sleep, John Beaumann makes his way to the Cleaners. Upon entering, you are greeted by the disinterested look of Loretta, who is busily going through a pack of bubble gum.
“What do ya want?”
she asks and proceeds to slowly blow an impressively large bubble, that seems to cover most of her face as she waits for a response.
he's gonna say "I have some questions about side effects and recovery. Who can I direct these to?"
A few seconds pass as the bubble hets bigger then pops. She presses an intercom button, that seems to amplify her words through speakers you assume must be present all around the compound, and says
”Yo doc. That weird guy with a loaf in his pants is back!”
She proceeds to roll her eyes and says to you,
”I’m sure he’ll see you soon.”
then stares into space.
...
Ten minutes later a young woman come out from the patient door, looks at you, and hurriedly walks out, giving you a wide breadth.
Loretta says,
”Dude, go in.”
As you walk into the office, the doctor waits, scribbling notes. A semi-reclined patient chair is empty. The overhead light seems to buzz and flicker. Dr. Knope asks,
”Have you been taking the medication as prescribed or are we here to chat again, hmm?”
He's going to incredulously say,
"Medication? It's only been a day. I haven't gotten any yet."
and then shake his head and say,
"We can talk about that later, though. What I wanted to check in about is that I had this incredibly vivid nightmare last night. It's bad to the point of me questioning my sanity. I highly doubt it was real, considering it involved ghosts and something that never happened, but I wanted to know if gaslighting yourself or horrendous nightmares are normal to experience after treatment. Either that or if you saw any repressed memories in my head. I don't know what you did in there, worth a shot to ask."
The doctor motions for you to sin the the chair. Upon sitting he sticks a myriad of wires around your head and body then appears to take a range of measurements, all while murmuring
"Hmm. Interesting. Most interesting. Hmm."
Which is punctuated by,
"No, the procedure shouldn't cause any visions, but you have come in a rather severe condition. It takes time to heal. At least a week. You should take it easy in the meantime. Residual effects usually persist in the more extreme cases. Tell me are these visions new? Have you always been irritable and incontinent?"
Followed by more murmuring. It is hard to discern full sentences, but you overhear words such as,
“similar progression”, “others”, “close supervision”, “difficulty”, “aggression”
Then,
"These visions are relatively new. They started around the time I got to this town. As for the irritable and incontinent thing, fuck you too buddy."
Dr. Knope gives you a quick glance and then jots some notes down.
”So tell me about these visions. When do they occur? Do you recognize anything in them? What significance do they have?”
Then after a pause,
”How is your diet?”
John Beaumann takes a deep breath and begins,
"Me and my wife used to work for this security company."
( He is purposely not mentioning Unknown because people around here seem to hold disdain for it, I as a player know full well John Beaumann's impact now)
"We were sent on a mission to go keep some random colony in check, and they got too violent. When I stepped in, well, long story short, she shot me in the head. I lost a lot of memories after that, but I KNOW that they're correct. They're the only ones I have besides being shot and what happened afterwards. Some people from that colony nursed me back to health. They wouldn't have done that if I was a killer. They WOULDN'T have."
John Beaumann, suddenly breaking from his increasing panic and realizing how desperate-sounding he had just become, takes a slight pause to compose himself,
"It occurred last night, when I tried to get a good night's sleep for once in the past few weeks. This nightmare I had involved the children that my wife killed and my wife. They appeared to me in ghostly forms, and blamed me for their murders. It was just generally disturbing after that, you know, like ghosts. Lots of blood and scary whispers and whatnot. In the dream my ghost wife scratched me, and my hands were covered with blood. When I woke up, the scratches and blood were there, but only under the fingernails of my opposite hand. I'm assuming I did it to myself."
John Beaumann's going to break from his deep thought once again and remember the diet question, and give the froggy man an odd, incredulous stare, but will comply anyway because he wants to get to the bottom of this.
"I've mainly eaten rations and random scavenged garbage for about a week. I was lost in the desert."
He's also going to say
"What 'others,' by the way? You're not talking about the ones in the asylum, right?"
Dr. Knope sits and listens to your story. His eyes are on you, attentive and focused. As you finish, his glasses rest in his hand and he pokes the tip of one side to his mouth, thinking. A pregnant pause lingers in the air.
"Memory is a funny thing. It is not what most people think. Did you know that every time we remember something, it is as much of an act of creation as it is an act of retrieval? As they get excited, the neurons in our brains actively seek to form new synapses and interleave bits of present and bits of recent thoughts right into the old memories. In some very real ways, the purest memories are the ones we haven't remembered.
Memories are more than some parts of the past. They are as much reflections on ourselves. Memories are parts of our subconscious talking to us."
He pauses again, his eyes focused on your head, but not your eyes.
"You seem to have very strong emotions interleaved with this memory. I think it is interleaved with your sense of self. This make you defensive and unable to discern the pieces. You seem certain of what happened, yet your mind is splitting the story. Whatever actually happened may be less important that your internal struggle for who you are."
He gets up walks up to you, looking at your head carefully.
"How far away did you say your wife was from you when she shot you? I'm no soldier, but I would think that a bullet wound at close range would leave a considerable scar...
...Where is your scar John Beaumann? And if you don't have a scar, where is your wife?"
You don't have a scar.
He's just going to kinda look not at anything in particular, his eyes glazed over, a dumbfounded yet extremely worried expression on his face. it's extremely obvious that behind his eyes, his head is going a mile a minute trying to reason and re-reason. he won't answer Dr. Knope.
Dr. Knope will let you leave if you choose to do so.
After a really long pause, like uncomfortably long, John Beaumann's going to go,
"......are you sure?"
He's just dumbstruck.
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