I saw the deva linked to Idris's God today, the one who I assume he has had contact with before. She came down in a swoop of wings and light and all around the townsfolk saw her too and were impressed.
It bothers me.
I have never liked Gods, or rather I have always thought it better to stay out of their gaze and attention at large. My own path in life in many ways exemplifies the reason, but it bothers me in a more fundamental way, her coming.
She had spoken to Idris before, but was not seen visibly by others back then. Yet she came down this time in all that glory, and when faith is the currency of the Gods, she became a blatant and unrepentant thief because of it. She had not sent Idris here, nor helped him defeat the dragon. She had helped none of us in the fighting, nor saving the villagers, but she came down like that in the aftermath and stole the awe and attention of the townsfolk, and then spoke of Idris's pact with the Three as a dark taint, trying to turn Idris, and all the villagers, away from the influence of the death gods' domain, when it was our actions that had saved those villagers.
Politics and theft, all wrapped up in a pretty package that was easier for people to swallow than the Three are.
I will admit that in those moments I had some wish that the Three had appeared in order to put her in her place, but I am not foolish enough to ignore the fact that they are not at full strength, and agressing upon her would likely cost them dearly when the greater task of securing the power of Death's domain is imperative.
So I kept my silence, but the scene left a bad taste in my mouth. She seems to be allowing Idris to make his own decisions, make his own bed as it were, with his oaths. I think perhaps she would lose too much if she were to force him to abandon the pact with the Three considering how tied paladins are to their oaths. She would lose him. But she spoke to him in such a visible way that it also influenced all the people in the area, taking credit, passively, for what she had not worked for.
I found myself with a little-felt emotion of anger and the darker feeling that leant towards hatred echoing inside me at the sight of her. Is it mine, or were the Three watching through my eyes?
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