Ni-Rahm-Aben (PC)

1. Please provide a brief (at least one short paragraph) backstory for your character.
   
   - Ni-Rahm-Aben (Rahm) is a young 30’s Cerean male from Cerea.
   - Local council ensured he had honor-mated early in his life, from 16 to 28, fathering three in that time, they had planned on more. They pressured him to bond-mate in his prime, but he had delayed indefinitely.
   - During the period of GCW, his equatorial village was ransacked by pirates, no galactic community to assist with defense.
   - Saw at least one honor mate and progeny killed by pirates. Fought to save them, failed, subsequently murdered the Pirate while they were defenseless with their own  blaster.
   - Kept the blaster, despite planetary law forbidding offworld technology. Felt helpless without it.
   - Matriarchal council turned to him to sire more children, business as usual. He refused and fled to Visitor Citadel.
   - Decided not to abandon his people, but to arm them. Became a gun runner for Cerean provincial community.
   - Rahm overcame prejudice against technology, fear of Council reprisal, and run-of-the-mill “it can't happen to me" attitudes with his story, firmly held beliefs, and his force of personality.
   - Not wildly successful, and margins were tight, but he became well known enough to become known to the planetary council of matriarchs
   - Was caught in a sting within citadel, injured a number of citadel enforcers, and was locked up.
   - Due to an impassioned speech he made before the presiding magistrate, Rahm was sentenced to exile rather than life imprisonment or death.
   - It may have also had something to do with yet-unnamed connection with the Force, which he has subconsciously used. Or the fact that males are too culturally important enough to waste.
   - The Magistrate (name TBD) was wizened enough to have clear memories of the Cereans treaties with the Jedi. She explains his skill with weapons and his ability to influence the minds of his fellow Cerean, aren't his alone, and there's a place that might be able to explain more.
   
   
2. Why does your character want to be a jedi? There are a few reasons. It's one of the first choices that he has been presented that didn't feel like he was being corralled into a false choice or no choice. Secondly, he's been told he has abilities that could be used to protect people. He's very interested in proving himself as the hero of his own story that he's been selling people to sell arms. He's lost his village. Or rather, he took turns forsaking his people’s way of life, and they forsook him in turn. Even as he's looking to experience his newfound independence, He’s not exactly ready to be adrift in an alien galaxy.
   
   
3. Are there aspects of your character’s background (people, events, places) that were more formative to your character’s current personal development?  The first formative moment worth touching on is when his village elder spelled it out to him that his job was to be a semi-productive, non-disruptive member of his village, and sire children. That always stuck with him, that he didn't define his place or value, his sex did, and that his mediocrity, excellence, and inherent self worth were a distant second. And that he didn't have control of his life.
   
   During the piracy that befell his village, when he saw his honor-mate (baby mama) and his second child caught by stray blaster bolts, it made him feel powerless in a primal sense, as if he had failed what it meant to be a person. He reclaimed that control when he wrestled the blaster away from their killer and put a bolt through the pirate. Rahm didn't stop pulling the trigger until the energy cell depleted, and by that time, he was marked with severe Tibana burns. It was at that moment that Rahm knew what power and control felt like, and he never wanted to be paid from it. That raider wanted to kill him and he said no.
   
   What he hated most was that these Raiders weren't acting special. No discipline, no special training, just a desperate fool with a blaster. After he overwhelmed him, the feeling of control and power as he executed the man gave him such a sense of relief he hadn't known his entire life. And it made him realize that they were pigs to slaughter, of their own choosing, and he hated that for his people, so he worked to change it. He has not really dealt with the nature of needing primacy over others and control over his environment to feel “okay."
   
   After that happening, he was expected to just throw his newfound control and power away and resume his life, the cycle of intentional, learned helplessness, fathering children he can't reliably protect in a community that only saw him as a breeder. They even tried to force him to find a bond-mate immediately after and make more kids. That he was just a repopulation project to the village made him sick, and he wanted to be more than that, so he chose the only other option left to him.
   
   
4. Describe the kinds of personal relationships you might have had in your past? Child-rearing is fairly communal, so while he does have a mother (Name-TBD) (he was her last and luckiest), his entire elder female community were his parents. She, and others, patronized him, abetted his somewhat frivolous attitudes towards hard work, women his age, and his outlook on life. He loved her, of course, but he slowly built up the resentment that many male Cereans did in this situation.
   
   First Honor-Mate (second baby Mama) - his first crush, and the council did not immediately sanction their mating. They swept Rahm away from her and to a girl he had no real connection with, but they did what they were expected to. After she took with child, he was able to see his first crush again. That led to another new Cerean life. The local council gently (and sometimes not so gently) convinced them to spend time long before she birthed and nursed. They were both scared, lust-filled teenagers at the time that were encouraged to fraternize. This isolating event painted Rahm greatly, but it taught him to treat relationships as fleeting, mercenary arrangements. That was cemented when she was murdered by pirates, many years later, along with their child together.
   
   Village (Name-TBD) Matriarch (Name TBD) - She is the reason Rahm has such a hangup about control. Every moment he has felt like a shackled less-than, she has been the one laying down the decree. She wasn't a horrific woman, not gleeful or malicious in her curtailing of his self-determination. But she didn't have much patience for Rahm pushing his way out of whatever box she decided for his life path. When he was told to turn in the pirate’s blaster for destruction, and to begin thinking of finding a Bond-Mate, Rahm told her that she was everything that would kill the Cereal, that she had killed his honor-mate, not the pirates. That was the last thing he said to her before abandoning his village.
   
   Male Cerean Magistrate (Name TBD) - Rahm was initially interviewed by him after his capture from his gun running, and ultimately suggested the course of action led him to seeking out the Jedi. He was the first elder that Rahm felt had any idea what it felt like to be controlled in the way he was, and the need for freedom and self-determination. The Elder definitely had the opportunity to lock him away and throw away the key, but chose to exile him and give him a direction so that he could find his own path. Even as angry and as stubborn as Rahm still is, it was hard for him not to appreciate the opportunity. They don't keep in touch, but Rahm feels very fondly about the person, in a complicated sort of way.
   
   
5. What is most Jedi-like about your character?  What is least Jedi-like about your character? Rahm did what he did to protect people. He believes in preparedness and some degree of self-discipline, and considers everyone the vehicle of their own self-defense. He also believes in defending others, and it's very important to be capable of defending others unable to defend themselves. Despite being a fairly independent person, he doesn't believe that sentients are an island more so than that he Just wanted independence for himself.
   
   Rahm is a very emotionally intense person, and exerts a good amount of effort into his interactions with people. That may come across as him being an emotionally empathetic person, but I'm reality, he seeks a great deal of control in his environment. In fact, he could be considered a control freak. His time as a gun runner and self defense advocate made him hyper-aware of the ways these social endeavors could go poorly, and I'm his line of work, he could never be too careful. That builds upon the general sense of managing his environment as a trauma response to not having a whole lot of choice in his younger life.
   
   If at a loss of control; disarmed in a dangerous situation, utterly unable to advocate for himself in a social setting, or penned in without many options, he may act out aggressively or with frustration. He isn't someone that seeks attachment, which is very Jedi-like of him, but he has swung much in the opposite direction of being flippant of the more sexual pursuits, and ultimately a bit hedonistic.
   
   
6. Does your character have a strong idea of the Force? Do they experience it in a certain way or is it a mystery to them? Not particularly. He knows he has pretty immaculate aim for a Cerean, and has an above-average way with words. There's no discernable sensory experience yet. Very much a baby in the Force.
   
   
7. Some characters have dark (or great) secrets that they keep locked away from even their dearest friends. Does your character harbor a great regret or a secret aspiration that is central to their character? It's not so much a secret as it is an unresolved Trauma. He seeks control because he had none, and his form of control is a potential for violence and a degree of a socially domineering attitude. He regrets and is ashamed that were not prepared to protect themselves, and has become a creature of action of violence to compensate for that.
   
   Dagger - His first potential bond-mate and the mother of his second child was murdered in front of him. He lost himself and executed someone in reprisal. What would he do if a close friend was in the same predicament?
   Dagger - This character should turn into a bit like a caged animal when forced into a corner. Any facade of control should give away to a terrified man if pushed far enough. He should become desperate and bitter.
   
   
8. What elements of your character are you most excited to explore, whether narrative or mechanical?
   
   Most Excited:
   - Narrative - It's going to be very interesting to play a forward, social character, who is actually covering for crippling insecurity without it becoming a meme or a joke. I get to present bravado and vulnerability when appropriate.
   - Mechanical - I've never played a gun Jedi. Especially not once that has a narrative and cultural perspective on them. It'll be interesting to compare to a bunch of glowbat characters.
   
   Most Challenging:
   - Narrative - A lot of characters range from painfully nonchalant to brave and foolhardy in the face of danger. This character needs to thread the needle between silently cracking and overcompensating.
   - Mechanical - Mechanically, I worry about the arms race. Definitely going to need a mechanic to buff my character fairly easily. Also, I intend to be a force wizardy type.
    
   Force
   - Narrative - Currently, he is just heightened reactivity, improved agility, and then a font of social force of will that influences people. I don’t know what kind of language he will come to use to describe his experience, but it will likely have something relating back to something about interconnectedness, relating to his people. Knots in a net, or some-such.
   - Mechanical - Unsure. Started with no Force Powers and just the Aura talent in Prophet. Probably going to lean towards something like Bind, Protect, or something more niche.
   
   
9. Does your character have a long-term plan, mechanically? The character was actually supposed to start off as a Warleader Guardian, but I figured I wanted to be a social character that could gun, rather than a Gun-character that spec’d into social stuff. So he’ll ultimately be a force multiplier both in combat and in social situations, and the Force w/ Font of Power.
   
   
10. The Dark Side tempts each Jedi differently. How does it prey upon your character's emotional weakness and what makes them susceptible to it? The dark side prays upon his fear, offering A way out. For example, his fear is like Annette closing around his heart, ucing fears of being trapped claustrophobic unable to move. The dark side Is like a knife, a way to cut out, where as the light is the presence of mind and courage to endure.
    
    
11. Would you rather start your character as an Initiate or as a Padawan? Initiate.

Ni-Rahm-Aben Character Sheet