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S024: Vala & Sildar's Two Person Going Away Party

Vala scene setting: Vala Silverton is stripping and redying her hair, and with little to distract her, finds she is extremely agitated. She cannot read Sildar Hallwinter to save her life and is really not used to wanting to fuck around with people she actually knows and likes. She's spent the past 4 days trying and failing to train her magical gifts, researching any way to get back her divining powers and finding nothing. She knows she leaves again in less than two days and that every time she leaves and almost dies, she regrets not just climbing into Sildar Hallwinter's lap, propriety be damned. She grabs the Gold statue of a Sun Elf, and attempts to tap into it's divination powers. As she reaches for the statue's magic, she senses the Augury spell and before she can even think, casts it, asking the question she cannot seem to shake:

“If I go to Sildar Hallwinters door in just my cloak and drop it.... would he like that? Would he finally stop being so honorable and take?”

When she casts, the divination magic floods her and it feels different. Not uncertain or painful or dread-filled, but how Edda Everfall had described it feeling before the Spellplague. Uncorrupted.  Before she can think of that too much, flooded with a feeling of happiness and contentment, knowing that means weal. The feeling fades, but doesn't dissipate, and Vala realizes her divining powers, though lessened, have returned.

She grins a feral little grin, strips, fastens her cloak, and pulls up the hood. She goes to Sildar's room, and knocks on his door.


Sildar: [from behind the door]"Yes?"

Vala: "Sildar? It's Vala. If you're not busy, I hoped to speak with you."

Sildar: "OH! Oh, Lady. Just a moment!" Vala hears some furniture being moved and other indistinct tidying-up noises. "Please, enter, Lady"

Vala slips in and shuts the door behind her, leaning back against it trying to steady herself. Sildar is still trying to pick things up and put them away while Vala slips into the room and doesn’t look up. 

Sildar: "I have to apologize for the state of my bunk, Lady. I have had little time to keep things in order since returning from the field, looking after Gundren, and the myriad of other things keeping me from idling."

Vala looks around Sildar's immaculate room, a career soldier’s, not an item out of place, and chuckles. 

Vala: "Sildar. Stop. I share a room with my butler and a goblin." 

Sildar: He finally stops and looks up "OH Lady! Is everything alright? You look like someone pulled you from your room in haste!" he says, obviously concerned, but happy to see Vala. "No one else has disappeared or been attacked, have they? Are you alright? Did someone bother you in your rooms?"

Vala smiles fondly at Sildar's perpetual concern as he walks over to his gear, already preparing for a fight.

Vala: "Sildar, do you ever tire of it?"

Sildar: "Tire of what, M'Lady?" He says as he grabs his shield and dirk

Vala: "Being honorable. Not taking what you want." And Vala unclasps her cloak.

Sildar: "Honorable, Lady? I don't understand. Who's hurt?" and he finally looks up. "Lady? OH LADY." his gear clatters back to the ground. Sildar walks over and leans to retrieve her cloak as if trying to redress her, saying, "Lady, you've been through much in the past few ten-days. I'm not so sure that you..."

Vala puts her foot on the cloak and gives a little stomp, pulling it from his grasp.

Vala: "I've wanted you for weeks, Ser. Have you truly not noticed? My companions tease me mercilessly." Then softer, she says, "I'll leave, if you wish it. And never speak of this again. You need only ask."

Sildar looks up at her, sees her body from his current viewpoint, then looks directly into her face, seeing her sincerity.

Sildar: "Leave? You can't go out in the hall like that." Sildar says with a grin, but clearly means it.

Vala: Vala laughs at that. "Mmm. Then I suppose I'll have to stay. Whatever will you do with me, Ser?"

Sildar: He says seriously, "Well, Lady, if you insist that there's some way I can be of service to you..." then becomes very wry, "Then who am I to question it?" And as he stands, he puts his hands around her hips, picks her up from the ground, and carries her to the bed. 

Vala: She grins at him, "Ever the Knight, then," and she lets him

Sildar kicks away everything between them and the bed without a thought, kisses Vala passionately, and they tumble into his bed. Sildar, unsurprisingly, refusing to 'get' until he 'gives'. 

Fade to black.

Post Coital:

Sildar: "I must say, Lady, this was a very pleasant surprise." (Now saying 'Lady' differently, much less formal)

Vala: Vala props her chin up on his chest and says, "Was it truly a surprise? I've been told I've been exceedingly obvious, Ser." and she grins at him, tracing his many, many scars which she is VERY into.

Sildar: "Yes, a surprise. Not a shock, but a surprise. I'll admit that I've always had an attraction, but I'm old enough to have potentially sired you. Even though, we were born near the same time. By the way, it pleases me to see your hair back to the way I remembered."

Vala: She shivers and flushes at his blunt acknowledgement of their age difference, which she loves, and then touches her hair, saying "It felt dishonest to come to you in my disguise. I suppose... I don't know, I wanted it to be me, silly as it sounds. It felt important."

Then she looks at him more closely and says "I have felt, since I saw you kicked from that fucking ledge all those weeks ago, that I knew you but couldn't place you. Forgive me, Ser, but did we know each other back in Neverwinter?"

Sildar: "We met only a few times in our youth. But I knew of you, how could I not? You were noble and the Oracle. And an absolutely stunning no matter your station. You would have no way of knowing it, but I was among the guard details tasked with your security and that of the youngest Bann for some time. We kept out of sight, for your own safety and for your own privacy. Mostly we kept watch for anyone who could be a potential threat and a lot of that was information gathering."

Vala: She goes from flushed to very pale very fast and winces a little at that "Ah... so you had a front row seat to the performance. I'm surprised to find you here with me at all then, to be honest."

Sildar: "Performance, Lady? "

Vala: "I.... I know there was little reason for the two of us to meet, though it saddens me. You were, are" and she scans him somewhat hungrily "exactly my type... but did you know Bann III?" Vala sighs before he can answer and says "I suppose you couldn't have truly known either of us, there was so much we had to hide while we plotted."

Sildar: "I knew Bann III in our youth. We were friendly. I remember him enough to know he hated that name. I always called him 'Trice'. He seemed to enjoy that nickname. Or at least he didn't dislike it enough to get me disciplined for using it" he chuckles.

Vala: Vala laughs as well. "We tried to make a game of it, teasing each other by calling each other prince and princess. He did so despise it.

Sildar: "We were raised near one another through our early years but our stations forced us apart as tends to happen with the upper classes. I left for service in Waterdeep when I reached my 20th summer, so I lost touch with much of Neverwinter from there on out."

Vala: Vala hums thoughtfully, "You were probably closest around the time the two of us were thrust together, my father did so yearn to make our house a royal branch." Vala smiles sadly, "You would have liked him, I think. The man grown, not just the boy. If he had let you see him.” and while she traces a scar she smirks and says "He certainly would have liked you."

Sildar: "I have caught on to your dislike of your father. I didn't want to pry or assume too much. But I do know that common talk referred to him as a particularly... avaricous noble. Which is saying much for the gossip amongst those in Waterdeep"

Vala: Vala sighs softly and says "He truly was. Lander was the sort to make you yearn for the ineptitude of Harbin Wester, I'm afraid. I am realizing, in my freedom, just how vicious Papa was. I told Sister Garale just yesterday that he had betrothed me 24 times and hadn't thought much of it until it shocked her." 

"The first was the kindest. Bann and I were an atrocious match for every reason except fondness. He was the best friend I've ever had. Though Papa cared little for how I felt about any of it, or of Grandmere's warnings."

Vala laughs a little, "without him looming, weaving plots for me to cut myself from, I scarcely know what to do with myself." and she smirks up at him and says "I do so appreciate you helping me find such delightful ways to keep busy, ser knight."

"And while I appreciate your tact, and your willingness to let me keep my secrets, I'd like you to feel free to ask whatever you like moving forward, if it pleases you. I find... I trust you. It is a feeling I have little experience with, I'll admit, but I'm acclimating." She smiles and it turns to a wince again as she makes herself ask "... what did you hear of us in Waterdeep?"

Sildar: "I did hear the rumors about Trice's 'improper' relationship with the court Oracle and many other sordid affairs that reached the lips of courtiers in Waterdeep. So much talk of wastrelry and excess and scandal. As if the nobility, either large or small, of Waterdeep and Neverwinter didn't get up to the same things at which they feigned offense. I never put much stock in it though. I felt I had a good sense of who Trice truly was during his formative years that he couldn't have fallen all that far."

Vala: Vala smiles at him. "He didn't. I'm pleased to hear you say so. I suppose I'm glad our 'work' reached as far as waterdeep, though it didn't save either of us in the end. Strange as it is to say it's good to know our efforts weren't wasted."

Sildar: "Plus Northern nobles excel at gossip and exaggeration more than even the most talkative of Dwarven grandmothers. The tales of rampant philandering made me the most suspect of all the talk, especially knowing Trice's carnal and romantic... 'predilections' as I'm sure he'd refer to them."

Vala: Vala cuts her eyes up to him in shock "You knew? He told so few aside from those he..." and the gears are clearly turning

Sildar: "Such surprise, Lady? I did know him as a teenage boy. And I'm a career soldier. A soldiery that is principally male and often in close quarters alone for months"

Vala: Vala laughs really really hard, wipes the tears from her eyes and says "When we were betrothed and we discovered it, we had hoped he would be a little like me, like you too, I suppose. We hoped that we could find some brute and build a bridge in our bed instead of marrying anyone we despised, as it seemed would be our lot." 

"When that didn't pan out, we decided to try to hide his predilections and destroy my reputation in a single move. It worked for a time."

Sildar: "For what it's worth, I don't think many suspected. Not at least enough to say it aloud. And as I said before, nobles love to talk."

Vala: "They truly do."

Sildar: "The gossip was always about Trice being around a gaggle of lasses not any particular jack"

Vala: "That was the goal. I brought men, secretly for him, he brought women, and we traded and let the rumors run rampant."

She looks up at him and says, "I think... I think he told me about you. He would never give me a name, but he used to flush so pink when the guard changed." Then she laughs again and says, "Gods, we probably drooled over you in your armor. It was our favorite way to pass the endless hours in that stuffy fucking castle."

Sildar: "Ah yes. The boys knew. Many of them made a game of finding subtle ways to peacock a bit, without calling the attention of any superiors. One of the more adventuresome guards began stuffing his codpiece a little more every few weeks. It got to the point that he was having too much trouble walking and spent too much time cooling his sore loins to keep up the jape"

Vala loses it, buries her face in his chest, and cracks up.

Vala: Vala wipes her tears from her cheeks again and says "You have to respect the commitment. I remember him. We used to call him the blackstaff. Bann always said it seemed half suffocated in there. We worried for the man. Thought it might go necrotic."

Sildar: Sildar gives a hearty laugh at that "Your powers of Divination must have been well functioning then, because as I recall that fellow didn't have room to spare for stuffing in the first place!"

Vala: Vala snorts and says "Less divining, and more a skill built over long, increasingly stifling years of utter bullshit. And escape. Bann and I were quite adept at both by the end." She looks up at him a little vulnerable and asks hesitantly, "You don't have to tell me anything you do not wish, but... did you care for him? Not the prince" and she kind of spits the word "but the tired boy beneath it? I had always hoped he would find that. It was one of the few things we managed to hold onto for one another. There were so many concessions."

Sildar: "I always had fond memories of him when we were children. He was a kind and thoughtful boy raised in an environment that had little time or patience for those such qualities. And he was an example that those qualities need not forsake others which many would hold are contradictory. He was strong, persistent, and diligent in everything he did, even those things that did not come easy to him. He certainly would never had been a swordmaster by any means, but he took his training seriously and knew how to defend himself. And would use it in the defense of others."

"I only saw him a handful of times in our adult years. Whenever we found ourselves in the same room, he seemed to have a slightly different way of carrying himself... a different demeanor than when he knew not that I could see him. I could tell something was off, but never quite what."

Vala: "Mmmm. He did that when he thought someone was good. When their opinion was worth something." She looks up at him and smiles at him very warmly "Given what I've seen of you over the last forty-some-odd days, I cannot say I'm surprised. We were always starved for honorable men in that snake pit of a court." and her smile tilts a little smirky and she says "Especially ones as fucking fit as you."

Sildar: Sildar laughs. "You flatter me, Lady. I certainly pale in comparison to your NOBLE form, but I do my best to keep up with the slow degradation of time. Otherwise I'd be a much less fit corpse."

Vala: "You do quite well," Vala praises. "And I heartily disagree, though I suppose it is all rather subjective."

"I... I've never told a soul this, Sildar, but I feel you should know... We weren't just whoring, Bann and I. And we weren't just ruining our reputations and slipping betrothals and convinving the realm he was something he wasn't."  even alone in the room with him she'll whisper "We were trying to break it" then she looks up into his eyes and says "The monarchy."

Sildar: Sildar pauses and looks inquisitive. "Interesting. To what end, Lady?"

"In that, I am not trying to be critical. Merely trying to understand what you intended to put in its place"

Vala: "Thats the thing, we couldn't decide. We were deep in research when the ruining happened. I believe he had allegiances he kept from me, the less we know of one another the safer it all was. The idea was, broadly, to spread the power out. To make sure there was not one person at the top to be weak, or compromised, or broken. To create multiple powers to check each other."

"It's why I was familiar with this region at all. One of the first things we look at was the pact. It seemed a promising blueprint. Bann had always worried about what may replace him, given his appetites and decided lack of appetites. It's why I've been so concerned about Dagult Neveremebr - I do hope you'll forgive me for my incessant questions."

Sildar: "Yes, the Pact is a very interesting example that seems to stand out in the shared histories of the region. Unfortunately, very little is known about the  specifics of how it was administered. It obviously had some significant success in its time, but it is also something that has not truly been replicated in the hundreds of years since."

Vala: "There were many examples that were somewhat similar, but none that we could find were modern."

Sildar: "I certainly am no historian, but it is quite common knowledge that King Nasher was not fond of his title."

Vala: "He wasn't. Grandmere said it often. She said he and Gathen, my grandsire, felt much the same about it. That they would have been happier on bedrolls in the wilds than in the castle."

Sildar: "He was not one to suffer uselessness or hereditary nobility. He was a truly self-made man."

Vala: "Truly. It's why we thought elections were so important. But as Bann said, heroes are not always the best rulers."

Sildar: "In fact, many of them are unfit. They often tend toward the reckless. Which is why many of them don't survive long enough to become rulers."

Vala: Vala laughs, "Bann always said that was a lucky side effect. Like the worst lords and their love of drink. Some remove themselves from the board."

Sildar: "I have certainly found significant merit in systems where power is more thoroughly distributed. But I must admit, I've seen firsthand the limitations that distribution and, even more so, how quickly the change in systems comes about."

"The good Captain Deudermont had the best of intentions for Luskan, but the ignorance and short-sightedness of the masses ended up dooming him in the end. And bringing about their own downfall, unfortunately."

Vala: "That's what we found as well. We were not looking to create endless bureaucracy and that's where we kept landing.

Sildar: "I have seen it in Waterdeep as well. The Masked Lordships are much more inclusive as to the backgrounds of the Lords, but that is a fairly recent change. And has also led to many severe setbacks that risked total collapse of the government and the city from within."

Vala: Yes. We talked much of that. Even folding in the minor lords could be catastrophic. I like to use my father as an example, though I hate to even breathe life into his name. His house branch was minor, his lands were small, and it made him vicious. The more power he got, the more he wanted and he wasn't an anomaly. We didn't know how to curtail that sort.

It was my supposition that the scale of Neverwinter was too large for us to truly consider, given all the factors at play. That we needed to start smaller."

Sildar: "Phandalin does seem a promising prospect for building a new community and a new type of rulership from the ground up, which is one of the reasons I have been so dedicated to it."

"And another is much more personal. I have alluded to it in the past, but I feel safe in being honest with you, Lady.

Vala tilts her head and waits, looking at him very openly.

Sildar: I want a safe, secure, and prosperous Phandalin, because I want to bring my daughter here."

Vala: A very genuine smile breaks over her face "I'll bet you're a truly lovely father, Sildar." 

Sildar: "I try to be Lady, but I also have many responsibilities that pull me away from her. Too many to be the father that she deserves. She has a good life in Waterdeep, she wants for very little. But I see the limits there as well. And, more importantly, it is not where her mother wished for her to be raised."

Vala: "It must pain you greatly to be apart from her. What is she like?"

Sildar: Sildar's face brightens and he gets a big smile on his face when he starts talking about his daughter. "You would like her, Lady. She is a child of contradictions. At times, she is a dove: beauteous, serene, and delicate. But at others she is like badger: fierce, willful, and determined. She is very much her mother's daughter. Lovely, but not to be trifled with. I knew not her father, the one that sired her, but I understand from stories of him, that he lives on in her as well."

"She knows that we may not share blood, but that she is most definitely my girl and I her Da. And that I will love her and protect her with my entire being until I am no more on this Plane."

Vala’s smile grows and grows as he describes her. He’s right, Vala would like her very much. She sounds like a little lady and also a little shit, which was Vala’s favorite flavor when she trained the young court mages. 

Then she looks a little surprised when he mentions the girl's father. She had thought it sweet enough when she assumed the girl was a bastard that Sildar hadn’t cast to the side - another difference between he and every other lord she’s ever known. She softens even further at the thought of him revolving his life around a little girl he just loved and claimed.

By the time he states plainly that blood or no, she's his, and he her Da, Vala is misty-eyed.

Vala: “When I called Tomlin family all those weeks ago, she’s who you spoke of.” And her smile gets a little bigger. “How old is she? Your fierce little lady?”

Sildar: "Yes, it was her to which I referred. Her name is Alana and she's seen 13 winters, although you won't think her that young when you meet her. I've known her since she was just a babe, right around the time of the passing of her first year. Her mother, Aeri, the Gods watch over her, fell to a fever when she was only 2, and I've raised her since."

"With the help of my cousin, Aundra, who is with her in Waterdeep. Aundra has been like a second mother to her, thanks be, for I could never have raised the lass on my own"

Vala: Vala's still smiling really softly at him and says "I'm glad she has a mother figure, though I'm sure she misses you greatly, and you her. I can understand your urgency here, there's precious little I wouldn't do to make this place safer for Tomlin to rest his head - and even less to protect a sweet thing like your daughter."

Vala grins up at him and says. “I very much hope to meet her someday, your little spitfire, Alana.  I am sorry to hear of her mother, though she was exceedingly lucky to find you, Sildar. I've not known many men to do half of what you've done for her for their own blood."

Sildar: "It was the least I could have done to repay the kindness of her mother, for I was lucky to have found her... or for her to have found me, as it were. It was in the winter of 1458, during the end of the Wyvern Spire campaign. A terrible time to be locked in a military campaign in the north, but we could not delay. I was riding Silver Wing with Orda and we were locked in battle over Ice Spire Peak. We were hit by a blast of cold and then several wyverrns rushed us. I was knocked from my saddle and fell. I know not where I landed or how long I lay broken on the ground, but Aeri and a group of foresters from Westbridge found me. They brought me back to their village and Aeri nursed me back to health. She was an amazing and strong woman. She had a babe to care for, had just lost her husband, and still dedicated herself to keeping me alive and then supporting me during my convalescence. We had only a brief time together, but it was one full of love, peace, and contentment that I had previously not known in my life."

"That battle is where this came from." Sildar indicates a large scar that wraps around his entire torso in an unending line from the bottom of his sternum to his lower back. "The extra padding of my armor and the extreme cold was likely the only thing that saved me. I should have been eviscerated and bled out. But The Watcher and Lady Luck must have smiled on me that day."

Vala: Vala traces that scare a little wonderingly, honestly, perpetually mindblown Sildar is alive, and leans forward and kisses it soundly. "I'm very glad she found you ser, the world would be an even more broken place without you. Your Aeri sounds like quite the woman. And I am so very sorry you lost her so soon. What of her lives on in Alana?"  

Sildar: "Oh much survives, Lady. Her strength and perseverance most of all. Once she sets herself to something it gets done how SHE wants it, the Gods and all the Hells be damned!"

He laughs and Vala grins as well, loving wild children.

Sildar: "But also her love for nature and connection to the land. Alana has spent most of her life living in Waterdeep but still yearns to take to the wilds, despite having such little exposure to them. Which is one of the reasons I want to bring her to Phandalin. I think she would thrive here. Especially watching the many exploits of young Carp. I think they would be fast friends and capable rangers before they reach 20 summers."

Vala: Vala snorts slightly at that and says “I cannot imagine you’ll let her range as far as Qielline lets her [little shit in halfling], though. When I spoke with her last she hadn’t seen him for days. I imagine you’d pull your hair out, ser.”

“Perhaps you’re not a worrier, but I’ve seen you plan,” and she looks around the map and paperwork covered room and smirks “… and I doubt it.”  

Sildar: "Aye, I would certainly fret, but the best way for a child to learn to survive in this world is to do so. I can only protect her so much before I must trust her to do so on her own."

Vala: "Tomlin felt much the same, when he helped me sneak about.”  

Sildar: "I've done what I can during her most vulnerable years, but she is near her coming of age. While I certainly won't let any real threats abound near her, she will need to scrap and scrape and build a few scars of her own. I feel that Phandalin is on the precipice of being a place where life is secure enough and has community enough to protect children during their early years and then allow them to grow during their formative ones."

Vala: "Wise of you. She’ll find a way to slip her leash if you give her one.”  

Sildar: "Oh, she will NEVER be leashed, Lady. Of that I am already certain. Her aunt is very much of the same opinion, that was built over centuries of Hallwinters. Children should be protected and nutured, but trained for life from the day of birth."

Vala: "Mmm. Grandmere always liked to say to love is to prepare. I was lucky to have had her, as Alana is lucky to have you..”  

Sildar: "Aye. Your Grandmere was a wise woman. I knew of it from the reputation of her Sight but it sounds as if t'were true of her mundane life as well. I can think of no better way to celebrate the luck we both have had in the people brought into our lives than to have you again, Lady, if you'll indulge me."

Vala: Vala smirks and slides up his scarred body and kisses him hard. "I think, ser, I’d let you have me anytime you’d like. But first, I believe some... reciprocity is in order."

Fade to Black